If I only had a......

Well Here I am, sitting at the St. Louis Bread Co. Pondering my next move.

I made this huge change in my life this past month moving to Alton, Il. I know that it's God but It's really taking it's tole on me. 

I've been getting up around noon everyday...I hate that. 

I've only been working like 25 hours a week. (not enough or what I owe)

And not really seeking out why? I'm here.

You know when you finally make a step in the right direction and then once your there, it does not seem like it was originally envisioned. That's where I am. I seem to just be thinking so much. I have a purpose. I have a calling. I have a goal for my life, To minister and do God's will but it's hard with all the pressures of the world around you. Now my pressure is money. I have all this stuff I owe (bills) and I go from a job that paid 10 an hour 40+ hours a week down to this 7.50 and not even 30 hours a week. I can not live off of that. But God is in Control. He always has been and always will be.

I really want to start speaking again. I sent out some emails to some churches around and so I'l see what happens. Also I am supposedto be going to Wapato to speak sometime this summer.. O how I wish it were soon. I miss speaking, I need to start writing down all the things that God has been doing in me and organizing them into sermons. 

Did you know that the hamberger patty was invented in the late 1800's but the thought of putting it on a Bun was not till around the 1900's. 

Way is it that we think that it just kinda happened. That someone sat down and put meat and bun and tomatoes and katchup together and that's how it has always been.

I'm really learning that God brings things together in HIS timing. Not ours. I might not be full completing and it might not even be YOU who does it all but it gets added to as the years go by. I german who made the Patty might not have even been around for the rest of the additions to it but it don't matter. It started with Him. 

This is only the begging of the story of my life. Alton is playing a supporting roll and back drop for this time a season but it won't end here.

I just need to find out why it's here...I know it is but not sure where and why.

The day has come

Well, The day has come....Kinda sad, kinda excited. 

I'm beginning to miss my family here already. The last few months (9 months to be exact) have been so incredible. I love my family even more than i did..

You know that you have to love family to some extent cuz they are blood but after you see them, live with them and see who they are for more than just a week vacation during the summer, you love them even more.

Kathy, Rick and Tara have been so incredible. I love them more then they could ever know. I know their friends, they are my friends now. I have lived with them and laughed with them. 

Being able to go to church with my grandma has been one of the greatest things of my life. She has a special place in my heart.

I know that all of my family out here will be here for a long time but Leaving them means so much more.

Grand junction (palisade) has become a home. It is an incredible place for me. 

God is so good, He moves in ways that I can not see. My aunt has given me some incredible advise the last months. She is so strong. God moved me here for a reason. At the time I had no idea what that was. Now I know. It was for my family. It was to be able to call them family and love them more then family. 

Leaving tomorrow means a brand new start. Leaving old things and creating new memories and times with God. 

I'm loving more then i ever have before , I'm learning more then ever before and Loving God in new ways. 

I take my whole life here with me. Leave the things that need to be left and take the things  that I have learned to my new home.

I"LL BE BACK!!!