This one comes with a warning.... don't get hurt

If you are someone who reads this and think that it pertains to you then ok. But I'm just venting. This makes me feel better. So don't get hurt. Don't call me up and ask me y I wrote this. 

NOthing that I write means anything but what I am feeling at this exact moment. RIGHT NOW.

Tonight I am tressed. A little mad (at myself) and agitated. 

Y do I feel like I don't know what I am doing. No to be more honest. Why do I feel like the people around me don't think I know what I am Doing.

I struggle. With many things. But one thing I know and have made a point in my life is not running off of emotions. 

I pray against that fact that SO many people run off their emotions and get themselves in trouble. 

I just wanna run. Runaway. Run to a town where I know someone and just love God. Y can't I just love God and not get all chastized for it. 

Y? I don't get it

I know that I suck with money. I know that I could have stuff saved away for things I want but still be able to pay my bills. I know

I hate when people question me. NOt just me But question what God says to me. 

        REMEMBER DON'T GET UPSET

I just wanna cry and get it over with. I wann go to South Africa and just love God and love people.

Y do people gotta make that so Freakin complicated. 

I don't get it. 

Someone Tell me Y?

I wanna same and move and  get my own place and love God and pour into people and Live my calling. 

I never wanted a life of safety. BEING SAFE ALL THE TIME SUCKS!

I want to dare to love God and see what Happens. I wanna love him with everything and see what he DOES.

I don't care. I love the people around me but I hate what they say sometimes,

PRAISE JAHOVA that I can still love him.